A Look Into The Vaults: "The Song My Mom Doesn't like" (circa winter/spring of 2009)

The sun has returned

But I’m still in the dark

The voice in my just crumbles and cracks

And the shoes on my feet are coming apart

And the ground underneath is now falling down

‘Cause I can’t put words to the things that I feel

But I’m still out of context after all these years

And no one believes when I say that I’m stuck       

And all I perceive is gonna fuck me up

It’s always been too much

And with everything that’s always going down

If only I could run from this stupid fucking town

Or maybe we might finally all implode

When the scientists release their man-made black hole

There’ll be nothing left as far as I can see

There’ll be nothing for me to feel for all eternity

And with no one left for me to disappoint  

The crushing weight of fear and shame will finally dissipate

'Cause even the people who love me the best

Don’t have the strength to pull me from this mess

And even the friends I love more than myself

Sometimes just make me lonely as hell

So maybe I want an extension of me

To drive myself mother-fucking bat-shit crazy

Or maybe I’ll be better of alone

Living in the mountains and dying when I’m old

‘Cause the sun has returned

But I’m still in the dark

The voice in my still crumbles and cracks

And the shoes on my feet are coming apart

And the ground underneath has now fallen out.